You noe wat Samantha? You've the same situation as me ALSO!!! I FED UP by doin tis and tat as he doesn notice at all!!! Wat a broken heart!!! Tat I'd never been treating a guy tat good lik him!!! BUT!!! He doesn believe me!!! I hate when he jealose of something!!! Somebody!!! Someone!!!! Some secret to tell you, I admit I will get jealose also BUT I juz wan him to make me happy, to cheer me... You noe, tis is most of the girls' "hobby".... BUT he would never noe tis... Actually, I wasn jealose sometimes though I acted to be ... He wont abt care my feelings...never... He wont noticed me...never.... He wont spend time juz to cheer me or to care me....never.... At first, I reli thought I've everything! I thought I've hapiness... I thought I've a bf tat loves and cares me as muc as he could do.... No MORE,,,, these are fake... I juz realised tat I'd been dreaming all time...STILL!!! I juz chose to believe and not to awake!!! I wan a guy tat loves me... I wan a guy tat cares me... I wan a guy tat will make me happy.... I wan a guy tat will bring hapiness to me!!! I WAN HAPPINESS... HAPINESS??? Maybe you'll ask me wat's tat... Cuz I noe there's no such word! Until juz now, he told me STRAIGHT FORWARD tat goin out wif me makes him feels BORING!!! Why he has to be lik tat??? I thought I won my fren, tat I've won HAPINESS...but, obviously....I'd lost....LOST>>>LOST>>>LOST>>> I'd lost... She owns hapiness,,,, She is so happy wif her bf now,,, Her bf treat her so well.... Her bf act her as a BABY you noe??? They are so SWEET... AND, I'd no more for these!!! My fren, EDEN, asked me to let him go... She said I'm not happy at all...very obvious,,,she said... BUt wat can I do??? I love him.... I dunno why, once I've finished typing tis sentence "I love him", I smiled...so cold.... I felt it's far away from me (I mean tis word)... I felt is's so distance... I felt it's so unreal... I felt it became so fake... All my DREAMS....have faded.... Everything....have faded.... No mood..=_=' Even no mood to type proper english...
