Sunday, July 26, 2009

MY FridAY NiGht


Las nite was Boo’s birthday. He had a birthday party at his hse. So many friends were invited. He fetched me to Boo’s hse... We had Barbecue but I never eat la... Cuz I ate dinner at home early d... Samanthe reached there so late... I heard Boo, Karuna n Li Ting playing the piano... To me, they’re not juz higher grade than me, they were juz so “god”... Terribly nice.... I love to hear Karuna playing the piano... So relaxing...

After tat, cake time,,, I ate the birthday cake... And Boo’s father was chasing me around the hse juz to take a pic of me as I was keep hiding from him.... So Scary... I finally know wat’s “DOTA”... Argh!!! Juz a stp killing game... So “wu liao”...

And then, Boo, Samantha, Jason n I went to the park together. But they walked in front and Jason I walked behind them... The park looked so creepy...so dark...so quiet...so scary... I holded his hands tightly... Ya and one more thing... the park was full of mosquitoes!!!! I played the swring n Jason pushed my from behind... Then I fell down cuz I din realise tat thing... He was so worried abt me...and made me keep laughing... HAHA...XD!!!

We kissed...
We hugged...
We walked hands together...
We played until so crazy... ( Dun simply thiink ar)
And the first time he carried me on his back...

So romantic man....
Though its dark...and creepy...and scary... but I enjoyed my Friday nite....
I enjoyed my Friday nite with him...

我知道


从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过


从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过娇纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流

My Friday


Yesterday morning I had my piano practical exam. Pruposely wake up early in the morning for all the preparations and to practise my piano scales, pieces n all stuff.

I tried not to be nervous...but I juz cant stop being NERVOUS...!!!

Later tat, my dad fetch my mom from the office as she wanted to company me to go thru my exam... We had breakfast... And I was keep drinking hot drinks to calm down and to cool down myself but it never helped anything at all....

After having our breakfast, we reached SHERETON HOTEL. After the registration, we waited insid the participles’ waiting room... But, I’m still nervous’ing’.... Heart beated terribly fast... Even my friends said tat it was very easy but I cant nervous’ing’ also..!!

Finally, it was my turn... My legs n hands couldnt stop shaking, I juz afraid of doin mistakes later.... Once I got into the room,,, I realised tat the examinar was a old lady... She looked fierce... I swolen my saliva hardly... Then I sat in front of the piano and started my scales. One mistake for the scales... Phewww.... Bad... I’m starting to worry everything now... Second, my pieces. The first song was well, the second song was ok, the third song...well....I made some mistakes at the end of the song...=_=”...

And then, the others lik aural, echo singing and dynamics changes all were gone thru well... Until “SIGHT READING”!!!!!!!!!!!! Its was a nightmare to me. By and large, I can say honestly tat I was simply playing....

But, I reli hope tat I could still get DISTINCTION!!!!

一年一次


7月9日,
这一天是他的生日...
前一个礼拜,我还在头疼着要送什么礼物给他好... 本想随便买一个送他就好... 但,怎样来说,我是他女朋友...礼物怎样都不能随便到哪里去... 终于到了前一天,我突然想到要煮饭盒然后带去学校给他吃... 然后,我就跟嘉营东想西想的...就在想要煮什么给他好...

还是第一次为一个男生绞尽脑汁地在想要煮什么给他吃...
想好了...我决定要煮....宫保鸡丁,,,炸鸡,,,一些菜给他咯...
多亏有婆婆帮我...最大的功劳应该是她吧...
在我身边帮助我,教我要怎样炒,放什么调味料...
我真的不会煮的!

虽然婆婆是没有什么看好我们的感情...因为我们每天吵架嘛...看到我每天为他哭, 又因为他愁眉苦脸地,看到她都心痛... 但是她还是希望我开心的...^,^
煮好了,我就带去学校 咯...他第一次是说不好吃...
然后回到家,他就跟我说,他好感动噢...还说其实是很好吃的^。^
他这样说...我也很感动啊...T。T

Saturday, July 25, 2009

分手... 和好...


分手... 和好...
分手... 和好...
分手... 和好...


我跟他,,,原来还,没到达一个稳定期...
我们之间是那么的脆弱,,,
分手的词字是那么容易地被说出口...


分手的定义是什么...???

为何他就能够那么轻易的溜出口来???


难道我对他来说,,,Signifying NOTHING???
难道我对他来说...没代表着什么吗???

难道我在他心里,,,是什么也不是吗???


终是要我答应他分手的要求...

我告诉自己说,
既然他都说出口了...
我便说服我自己尝试去接受这个事实...
接受要跟他分开的事实...
好不容易接受了这惨痛的事实...

当我下定决心要,,

忘记他...
忘记这个人...
忘记跟他的一切一切。。。

他就问我,要不要分手..................................................
我应该是开心才对...
但我很愤怒,,,
因为...他害我为他流露了那么多眼泪...
就因为他!!!

这算什么???
我对爱情可不是闹着玩的!!!!
为什么他就不能够尊重我的感受呢???

我是~~~?痛苦!


今天他特地来陪我回家,但是我们一见面就开始吵了...
一边走一边吵,也就是吵到我回家...

这几个天因为都特别忙,所以都不能写我的 BLOG...
但只是在这短短的几天内,却发生了很多事...

上个星期,我和他又吵架。那时已是晚上了,我和他都是准备要睡觉了,但还是还
没有吵完。当天是因为我的篮球而吵的...他一向都不赞成我打篮球...只是我硬硬
要打..也吵了不少次...这次也不知道为什么的,我讲话终是“语无伦次”....就连
自己说了什么话都不懂...

好烦~! 好乱~! 好可怕~! 好恐怖~!

但换来的不是得到他的安慰,,,而是他对我的不信任,,,他一直都以为我在说
谎,,,
说什么我不可能不知道自己在说什么!!!

当时的我,累了...
当时的心,死了...

当时,就在那时候,,,我仿佛跟一个死人没差别...
我不知道还有谁能够帮助我...

我快“挂”了... 我撑不下去了...
这还是我人生中第一次那么失落,也是最失落的一次...

我好害怕我自己...我从,没尝试过这种那么恐怖的感觉...
我突然觉得自己好陌生...好陌生...
因为,我连我自己都不知道自己是谁了...

Friday, July 3, 2009

猜不透

*~猜不透 你最近是好是坏 更沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁
猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过 且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过 且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的
*~如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

*~到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是才不透