Broken HEART

You noe wat Samantha? You've the same situation as me ALSO!!! I FED UP by doin tis and tat as he doesn notice at all!!! Wat a broken heart!!! Tat I'd never been treating a guy tat good lik him!!! BUT!!! He doesn believe me!!! I hate when he jealose of something!!! Somebody!!! Someone!!!! Some secret to tell you, I admit I will get jealose also BUT I juz wan him to make me happy, to cheer me... You noe, tis is most of the girls' "hobby".... BUT he would never noe tis... Actually, I wasn jealose sometimes though I acted to be ... He wont abt care my feelings...never... He wont noticed me...never.... He wont spend time juz to cheer me or to care me....never.... At first, I reli thought I've everything! I thought I've hapiness... I thought I've a bf tat loves and cares me as muc as he could do.... No MORE,,,, these are fake... I juz realised tat I'd been dreaming all time...STILL!!! I juz chose to believe and not to awake!!! I wan a guy tat loves me... I wan a guy tat cares me... I wan a guy tat will make me happy.... I wan a guy tat will bring hapiness to me!!! I WAN HAPPINESS... HAPINESS??? Maybe you'll ask me wat's tat... Cuz I noe there's no such word! Until juz now, he told me STRAIGHT FORWARD tat goin out wif me makes him feels BORING!!! Why he has to be lik tat??? I thought I won my fren, tat I've won HAPINESS...but, obviously....I'd lost....LOST>>>LOST>>>LOST>>> I'd lost... She owns hapiness,,,, She is so happy wif her bf now,,, Her bf treat her so well.... Her bf act her as a BABY you noe??? They are so SWEET... AND, I'd no more for these!!! My fren, EDEN, asked me to let him go... She said I'm not happy at all...very obvious,,,she said... BUt wat can I do??? I love him.... I dunno why, once I've finished typing tis sentence "I love him", I smiled...so cold.... I felt it's far away from me (I mean tis word)... I felt is's so distance... I felt it's so unreal... I felt it became so fake... All my DREAMS....have faded.... Everything....have faded.... No mood..=_=' Even no mood to type proper english...

毒腹人心

你讲我发娇？？？
你有什么资格讲我发娇？？？
你凭什么讲我发娇？？？
凭你有很多“干哥”就到处 LCLY ？？？
走路时屁股悄来悄去！！！
你自己也比我发娇好不好？？？
照照镜子啦！！！
以为全世界的男生都迷上你啊？？？

吐！！！

有口讲别人，没有口讲自己！！！

你说人家发娇？？？
你也好不到哪里去！！！
没有男生好像会死酱！！！

做人做到你酱假！！！
做女人做到你酱 CHEAP ！！！
做朋友做到你酱失败！！！

反正你身边也没有多少是对你真心实意的朋友！！！
靠近你简直就是在污染着自己！！！
以为自己好像很厉害酱！！！
占男生便宜占到透顶！！！
对你好一点就以为人家喜欢你！！！
又厉害编故事骗人！！！
说那男生对你多好多好！！！

吐！！！

做不成男女朋友还要人家当你的“干哥”！！！

真够不知丑！！！


不要脸！！！


三八婆！！！

CarinG

Thx for yr caring so muc...

I know I'm in a reality life... I know fairy tales wont happen in reality life... I know these are all fairy tales and will only happen in our dreams... I know fairy tales would not come true...
I dun believe in destiny... I dun believe in forever... Love stories dont last forever... Loves are fake!
They dun make miracle!
They dun turn magic!

Well, in the same view, I mean both of us... We've to stand up together rite?
We WONT believe in fake stories...^^

I juz have been busying these few days... Nothing happened to me... Dont worry.... Btw, thx!

Again & Again.....

Again & Again...
How long do I have to repeat this word...???

Again & Again...
I cried again & again...

Again & Again...
My heart breaks again & again...

Again & Again...
Ppl ask me to break up with him...

Again & Again...
I said I still love him

Again & Again...
My heart hurts...

Samantha said, "No happy endings if you all keep fighting,
maybe it's time to give up.....".....

I hope my heart wont be wrong...

"I hate hurtful words!!!
I hate hurtful stuff!!!
I hate things tat make my heart hurtful!!!!"

I think, I said to a person las nite...

"For a couple, you all fight a lot!"

I remembered, a fren said it to me.

"I promise, I wont make you cry and upset, never..."

I knew, this person tat say this to me, is the one I love...and forever...ever lasting love........

I believe, memories doens fade...
I believe, MY memories aren fake...
I believe, believe in love...

I hope, all these "believe" would never gone....

But,,,What is forever? Could anyone tell me....?
I believe everything, but I juz dont and wont believe in forever!!!
NEVER BELIEVE IN FOREVER!!!

Wat's forever..? A prettyful lie... A hurtful word... Forever is until you die... Is tat true?

Samantha, do you think this's funny?
After cheering you up, I juz fall into a deep deep hole again....
At all times, I stand up by myself...
I dun need ppl to cheer me up... Juz bcuz I think this as a fake... After tat, I wont think at all...
But until, my heart breaks again or I fall into a hole again... EVERYTHING tat I kept it in my heart...,juz appears in my mind......:'(

For a person tat mentioned I'm her GREAT FRIEND...

For a GREAT FRIEND,

From the first day I saw you, to me, you're a tough girl...a cheerful girl... But I realised I was wrong... I hope you dun mind,,, I juz wanna leave some words for you,,,, and I hope could cheer you up...
I just wanna make yr days....brighter.....

Accept what you must and change what you can, not leaving in dreams... not forcing yrself to forget a person tat you can never forget... Think before you act, and not regret any moment of carelessness... Appreciate what you have and the wonderful person you are. Enjoy the simple pleasures of life, in nature and in people. Forgive mistakes and forget the past. Learn and discover new experience and take life as an adventure. Dream and make plans for your future...

GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT....
Lik I say, dun force yrself to forget a person tat you can never forget...... Cuz you will be suffering...

Juz keep his name in the inside and the deeper part of yr heart. And owiz to thank him...
Thank him for letting you experience wat is love and letting you to grow up...
谢谢他，让你学会了死心。。。

I dunno am I right to say all these to you,but, I juz wan to cheer you up...

Dear GOD:
Touch the people I care for.
Keep them safe & happy.
Give them love & good health.
Bless them....
especially the ONE who reading this msg
and the ONe who I wanted to real bless.

As a fren, I'll owiz, OWIZ be there for you.

Take Care!

TIRAMISU!!!

I love TIRAMISU!!!!

My Favourite!!!













我爱TIRAMISU蛋糕！！！
我的最爱！！！

Great Girl!~

I cant believe Samantha reli mention my name in her blog! ;)

We were so funny by keep arguing abt whose blog is BETTER... LOL! Lik I say, both of us are oso perfect! At least she has more fans than me and tis's wat tat I've to admit it...

I love her songs in her blog, especially the first song, "one and the same"...! It's real COOL!!!

Haha, and now is my turn to mention her name in my blog. Samantha, if you had read this, jux wanna to tell you tat......you're real fantastic girl!

I still BELIEVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Even though I'm not

Some how I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he awaits for me
Some day soon he'll see I'm the one

I wont give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

I know whats real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for awhile
With just one touch love can concure fears
Turning all your tears into smiles

Its such a wonderous feeling
I know that my heart cant be wrong

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift ya from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever
When you fall
Its the greatest power of all

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

Yes I still believe
Believe in love
Still believe in love
I still believe
Believe in love

~Memories DOESN Fade~

2weeks holiday... I enjoy my 2weeks holiday very muc.....

Actually only one day. And tat was yesterday.... We had a very nice time there, there was me, my bf Jason, Sam n JanJin...

We had movies together... My bf was sitting bsid me n he hugged me tightly oso as the air-conditioner is very high. So romantic! We watched "the night in the museum", it was truly fantastic man! I love it!

After tat, we went to eat. The four of us la. We went to "wong kok" and eat. I ate the...er..... dunno wat the hell is tat... Then sam ordered nth cuz she ate b4 the movis starts, Janjin ate a...a very "cute" bowl of spagetti and Jason ate a "toilet bowl" of hot and spicy dunno wat mee... The best part of eating in "wong kok" is its cup and bowl and everything are so special. The cup is lik a jar. Jason even said tat they use a flower pot to put our drinks....so funny... The reason tat I said Jason was eating a toilet bowl cuz his bowl is real real big and it's white in colour oso until it looks lik a toilet bowl! LOL~!

After eating, we went shopping. Well, in common guys dun lik shopping but in common oso guls LOVE to shopping. and so they followed us...(no choice la)...^,^ I was keep looking for nail polisher and Sam oso. L8r on we went to a place (I dunno wat does it called in english) to shoot ball. It's besid "Popular" one. All of us shoot til our backs and hands pain.... Then we walk n walk n walk around...until we saw a small little shop tat sells rings, necklaces, bracelets n all. Jason promised me to buy a ring for me so he asked me to choose two (a pair of couple rings) rings for me and him. And it was terribly perfect and nice. The price.....omg...to me it's expensive, RM18.80!!! But, he was the one who paid, not me. HAHA :-p By and large, we love the rings very muc. It juz fit us well and it look nice too! I love him so muc!

天使的承诺 *** 无尽的伤痛 ***

上个星期是学校中年考试，整个星期，早上都与朋友一起到图书馆温习。一方面是不 想呆在家里傻傻地，又读不下书，另一方面是想见见男朋友，好想念他............ 但，怎样都好......我只有在下课时间才能够见到他一面.........很可怜..........我 与朋友们都不知道为何就是读不进脑......手痒起来就拿起一支笔，一张作文纸就 一直地在写小说...灵感不停地浮现在脑海中...

写着,,写着,,我朋友突然问了我另一个朋友一句话，“你赞同这句话吗?“不是每一 句对不起，都可以换来每一句没关系””我和朋友们都觉得这句话真的非常地有意 思。 接着，我朋友就接过我手中的笔和面前的作文纸，轻轻地在纸上写了一句

“天使的承诺，无尽的伤痛”

我这一位好朋友曾被爱情伤害过，而也是她的第一次。她这句话的意思对我来说， 已经陈诉了在爱情上三次受到伤害与折磨的我。我接过她面前的纸来，然后随着字 来念，“天使的承诺，无尽的伤痛......”。她以深感的眼神看着我，似乎想告诉 我这句话表达了她在爱情里所受到的痛苦.......当时的我，看见了这一句话后，虽 然知道自己也曾经历过，但也对自己说：我一定不会让自己在爱情里再受折磨了。


星期五是教师节，虽然这一天众人都觉得是一个很闷的一天,,大部分的朋友都不会 如此的愚笨会出席，但也有小部分的学生 (包括我和一班朋友)都是为了想要见男友 /女友一面才会勉强地给面子而出席的。 一早到学校，我以期待着见男朋友的心情到学校。到了学校，我遇见了一位好朋友， 打了招呼，说了几句话后就拉着我的另一位好朋友开开心心且心急地去找“他”。 谁知，我们一见面就斗起嘴来,,,T.T 我的心就像是被刀刺了般痛！好痛.........好痛..........
接下来，我已经完全没有心情地在学校范围里徘徊着。没有他的陪伴，我顿时很讨 厌热热闹闹的环境，我很害怕人来往往的地方。我只是懂得带着一个苦瓜脸地“走 着、站着、停着，然后坐着”....就一直重复做着同样的东西...一脸忧愁的样子， 话都不说多一句的我，多亏有一班姐妹的陪伴与支持，要不然我一定早就倒了,,,,但 是，我的心情根本没有半点好转，他们对我的不离不弃多半只是能够防止我做傻事 ....当时也没有想到要做傻事，只是想到他而已...
这时，我又再次感觉到 “天使的承诺，无尽的伤痛”了,,,我好像逃避这个现实，但 我做不到...！除了只是躲在角落那自己静一静，我什么都不知道了............都 不知道了.... 我感觉到，这时的我就好像一个玻璃瓶....好脆弱.................好脆弱.......... .......-_- 不能够再受到任何伤害，因为我随时会破.....随时会崩溃了..........

然后，

我什么都不想了， 我只想要回家静一静。

直到这个时候，他的朋友把他给抓过来要他跟我道歉。我看见他，我不知为何的，我 只想要逃避，我不想看到他。我朋友拉着我手“凌苇，你不是很想看到他吗？现在 他来了，为什么你又要走？”我憋在心里，我不敢说出来我的原因。我不知道要怎 样面对他，我也不想要跟他再吵架，我知道只要我们再说话就一定会吵架！我不想 再吵！即使是要吵架才能够把事情说清楚，我宁愿不要说话！我宁愿不见他！但是 我没有能躲得过，他就站在我面前了...我好像抱着他，然后不再说话了...但我还 是没有这个勇气！接着，他开口说话了。依我想的，我们又开始斗嘴了...我又好像 哭，但还是硬撑着，我不能够在这个时候在他的面前哭...