23 号~ 跳楼机 :p

海盗船玩了。。。

过后mR.GOH 说我们现在去挑战跳楼机！！！YEAH！！！

这个我每次来都想玩。。。因为看起来很刺激。。。！

WALAO！队很长的叻！没关系咯！反正有的是时间。。。

我们全部一起聊的。。。很开心。。。

数数看，还有三轮就轮到我了。。。

KANASAI！我突然间觉得很恐怖聊。。。

我一直压抑着自己的情绪。。。

无聊的我一直问丽婷：“恐怖的吗？？？”

“会不会夹到头发？？？”

“它上去的时候恐怖吗？？？” “真的不会夹到头发啊？？？”

问着问着。。。真的不行了。。。

它要下的时候声音下到我了。。。

不能了。。。我开始哭了。。。

我越哭越大声。。。

我说我真的不要玩。。。我要出去。。。

我不要玩了。。。

然后他抱着我。。。 他的怀抱好温暖。。。
我顿时很冷静。。。很舒服。。。

但是。。。我还是不要玩！！！！

轮到我的时候，他的朋友刚巧也顿时觉得可怕了。。。

所以他的朋友也就陪我一起出去了。。。

我在外面拍照。。。 刚好在这时候我又看到MR.GOH了耶。。。

最难忘的！！！就是这一天！！！

23号~

跟补习班去旅行。。。一起去玩。。。

他也是有去。。。因为他也是补习班的一分子

早上早早就起来。。。

收拾好全部东西。。。带上戒指。。。

我妈去他家载他。。。因为他爸爸有事不能载。。。

到那边就看到sam。。。很早就到了。。。

所有人都在补习班集合。。。

然后就上巴士去。。。

我们在巴士上有少少的争执。。。

but过后又解决了。。。

then就开开心心启程。。。

在巴士上没有拍照。。。

Mr.Goh给我们看DrAG mE TO HelL。。。

吓倒我要死。。。

but他一直有在我身边。。。

所以怕的时候，我就把自己的头藏在他怀里。。。

到了半山，我们就坐缆车上山。。。

刚好我们坐在同一个缆车里。。。

Of Cuz 啦。。。我们都一直走在一起。。。

到了半山已经冷到我要死了。。。

在缆车里就好一点。。。


到了云顶 放了行李

我们就去THEME PARK玩。。。

我们进一个CHOCOLATE场。。。

不好吃的。。。浪费我的时间。。。

Mr.GOH一定走在前面了的。。。

里面其实很美一下的。。。



我们一过了chocolate场就去玩海盗船。。。

Sam和Cherlynn一直都在我们两个的后面。。。

我们到了海盗船，看到超多人的。。。

but我们一直插位去前面。。。

原来他的朋友一直就来排队了。。。

久而久之全部超级的就插队到整行都是我们的人了。。。

够帅！！！

终于排到我们了！

一上船的时候。。。很串。。。

整船人都是我们超级的。。。

我们的默契是到周围的家长和小孩子们都羡慕到死。。。

真够大牌！！！

Mr.GOH没有的玩。。。他一直在下面拍照。。。

没有叫他send到那些照片给我。。。

炸到！！！

他一直喊：“我说超级你说 YO！”

然后我们整船人就跟着喊。。。“YO! YO! YO!”

很爽的叻！！！

不久，开始玩了。。。

真的很刺激！！！ YEAH！！！超级YO！！！

23号~

23号~ 是我一辈子最幸福、最快乐的一天
因为他从早相伴我一直到晚


他搂着我的腰


从来也没有放手过 跟他走在一起。。。感觉好甜蜜。。。


也有好多羡慕的眼神看着我们。。。


我们也根本不理会别人怎么去看我们。。。


当天的我们是处于在我们拥有的世界里。。。


好想会到那天。。。


现在想起。。。我都觉得所有事情都刚刚在昨天发生。。。


好安全。。。安全感一直都发自他内心给我的。。。


我好希望我们每天都酱过。。。

回忆-,-,-,-,-,-,-

曾经拥有属于我们的回忆
现在 只属于我一个人的回忆

曾经对我许下的诺言
现在 只有我在念着沉默

曾经对我承诺过的他
现在 只有我还记得承诺的内容

曾经拥有快乐的回忆
现在 只拥有眼泪的回忆

曾经有许多曾经的爱情
现在 只有许多被遗忘的曾经

可以不要再有伤心的回忆吗？
因为我不想活在伤心的回忆里

可以不要再掉泪吗？
因为我不想让眼泪吞噬了眼眶

可以不要在破碎我的心吗？
因为我不想再硬补我破碎的心

可以不要再有问题吗？
因为我不想只有自己一个人在回答

遥远的他 看不到 捉不到 感觉不到 只剩下背影
站在原地的我 无助 无奈 孤单 孤独 失去方向 失去所有
我和他 站在同一个地平线上 却感觉不到他的心跳
放不了手 捉住的 只有回忆
我却只活在回忆里 他也都忘了 我们的 回忆

`````手心.....

我 一个人徘徊在 我们的海
闭上眼我还记得那一天看见的蓝
爱 距离也分不开
你送的贝壳还在呼唤
在耳边答应要给我未来

那一天手心里的爱 我放不开
等一个人多么孤单
我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐

握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当你回来的时候
我一定要跟你说 别再走开

我 跟寂寞在比赛 等你带我
手牵手一起去看全世界最美的海
泪 不可以掉下来
我学着向日葵抬起头
等待着最亲爱的你回来
抱着我称赞我的勇敢

那一天手心里的爱 我放不开
等一个人多么孤单
我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐

握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当你回来的时候
我一定要跟你说 别再走开

贝壳握在手心 静静的变得温暖
就像是握住一点点答案

那一天手心里的爱 我放不开
等一个人多么孤单
我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐

握紧了手心里的爱
我勇敢了起来
当我祈祷的时候 天使都不在

当我痛苦的时候 也只好习惯
当你回来的时候 我一定要跟你说
别再 别再走开

勇敢!

日夜颠倒 梦和现实 对调
谁能带我 飞跃幸福 远方
闭上双眼 用心感应 仿佛听得到
是你为我 留下的暗号

当我 紧握你的手
你是耀眼的星火 就让梦想编织王者世界
照亮整个宇宙

当你 握紧我的手
我变勇敢的星火 和你一起闪耀
到世界尽头

放弃太早 和你约好 跟时间赛跑
用爱破解 最后的诅咒

当我 紧握你的手
你是耀眼的星火 就让梦想编织王者世界
照亮整个宇宙

当你 握紧我的手
我变勇敢的星火 和你一起闪耀
到世界尽头
和你一起到永远
不分手

对你有感觉~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我曾深刻体会对爱感到胆怯

还好有懂我的你给我安慰

看你失落的脸又在为爱憔悴

我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪 它给过谁伤透了心也无所谓我会愿意静静的陪在你身边

如果说爱已不可为 那我宁愿藏心里面

其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉又害怕朋友默契转身不见

矛盾着犹豫不决没准备跨越爱的界限

怎么会开始对你有了感觉深陷朋友恋人之间的危险

进与特都狼狈谁能解围让一切完美

你和我拥抱瞬间不后悔这完美

星光唯美把爱放心里面

~SoMetiMes~

You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Come just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
the way that I.... trust in you
all I really want is to hold you tight

内心最深处的讽刺

我好久没有update我的blog了。。。 是否还记得我的存在。。。？ 我。。。都不在意。。。 一个月了。。。，我的blog都没有新的一幕。。。 有人问过，但是我答不得空。。。but我其实是泪了。。。 在这短短的一个月里，发生了很多很多酸、甜苦、辣的事。。。 曾与我共度和留下印象的部落格。。。我也都觉得很累去写了。。。 但经过了那么多事情，我竟然却又会抽出我那一点点的时间去瞧瞧我曾留过的脚步。。。 原来，我还真的没有放弃过它。。。 却又有些事情，我在怎样想放下，都无法放下得了。。。 从来都只有别人羡慕我的“我”， 今天却觉得自己一直以来得到的是“一时的快乐”， 却不可能是“那简简单单的幸福”。。。 一直以来认为自己是很有人缘的我， 今天却觉得自己其实是如此的渺小。。。 今天却觉得我其实没有我想象中的坚强。。。 我一直都认为我捱的过。。。 他们如此的幸福让我感到无限的妒忌、寂寞、孤单、惭愧、自卑。。。 原来的原来我只不过时“那小小的我”而已。。。 我撑着。。。我还在撑着。。。 我妒忌他们所拥有的爱情，却是自己永远都得不到的幸福。。。 我寂寞因为在茫茫人群中，我不断的想着，我什么时候变透明了。。。 我孤单因为我发现我的天空今天晚上变得很灰。。。很灰。。。 我惭愧自己比不上他们的幸福。。。 我自卑因为自己是多么的渺小。。。小得我都看不见自己了。。。 我所期待的真爱真的只会发生在童话故事里吗？ 为什么？ 为什么我总是要抱着孤单？ 难道你不能再爱我一些吗？ 在我的眼里，我看见他为他她遮风挡雨，为她牺牲他自己 在我心里却是多么的讽刺，就像一刀一痕地往心脏割。。。 他不是我爱的人，但他为她所做的事情，却是“他”永远都不会做到。。。 小小的的保护，在我心里却是种种的伟大。。。 他也永远不会明白这一切。。。

RM49.90 sport shoe~~ O.o

Las Sunday I went to IOI wif my family... I was finding something... I was looking to buy one thing... Wat leh>>> A sport shoe...not to exercise one,but it's to wear to "gai gai" one... I went to the NEW WING n to the OLD WING... Cant find any...>.<

Then... I went in to a MOO MOO shop... Wat's tat? A shop tat sells cow??? NO LA... A shop tat sells shoes one... But the walls are painted wif MOo MOos... I spotted on one pink kalar sport shoe... I thought it was RM29.90, its branded somemore... <> My mummy thought it was cheap so she allowed me to buy it... But when we paid, the sales gul said the the shoe was RM49.90??? WALAO a!!! I took the upper self one n the shoes on tat shelf are ALL RM49.40!!! Oopssy, I took the wrong one... XX'  Wth?!?!? No choice lo. My mummy paid but at las, I've to pay bak half to my mummy one ar... T.T

~My unforgetable day~

24th August 2009,

This is a special day... Cuz...This day is my birthday...~~~!!!
I woke up early in the morning and saw Nicole sleeping on my sofa...
Then I went to take a bath, blow my hair,., And then, get ready to go to tuition...

...This part is borin...I know...

After tuition, I went to top up RM10 to my handphone... And waiting for someone to fetch me...to where? To IOI... Ya I noe it's cheap to go IOI on my birthday,,,but bcuz of A(H1N1)...my frenz cant go out too far... So I choose IOI la... But not much frenz... There's me, Samantha, Nicole and "him"...(my bf la~!)
And guess wat,the one who fetch me to IOI is my bf....no la...of cuz it's my bf la...He dun even noe how to drive... It's his father.... So damn scary... B4 tat, Jason told me not to wear mini shorts...wuu..wuu.. Besids of shorts I dunno wat to wear d... But Nicole ask me to try on the quater pants nnnnnn, guess wat, It really looked nice on me leh!! >_< style="color: rgb(102, 204, 204); font-style: italic; font-family:lucida grande;">mickey mouse t-shirt, looks lik a pyjamas u noe??? X.X

Once we reached there, Samantha n Nicole went to buy the tickets...We watched "UP"...

Firstly, we---Sam, Jason, me  n the guys were sitting in the same row...

Then,Jason bu shuang d... Changed to the row behind...

But,still in the middle part,next we changed to the right side part...

Samanthe dun wanna be wif me.. I think she afraid to be our bulb.. But...It was reli bad...to leave yr fren wif the guys n went to sit wif yr bf... I knew.. But... WAT TO DO???

After the movie part,,, we went to throw some balls... Vali vali cool...

After tat, we (actually only me n Jason,Samantha dun wanna follow us..HAIZ...XX..ZZZ)

Left Samantha,the worst part starts d... I was juz wondering to tell Samantha tat I've to go..to go "gai gai" wif my "bf",but he thought I was talking to the guys... You noe how Stingy is he de la...He could juz walked away..and he walked quite fast oso...Imagine you wearing high heels n its your bday, n you've to chase yr bf oso!!!! ARGH... I was terribly angry...\\\

"是你你带我找到另一个天堂，人比想象中跟美",hp rang. Samantha called n ask me to company her for awhile. She had to go n ask me to company her to the car. oh, ok! I went to Pizza Hut as she was there.. Wif the GUYS!!!!!!!!!!????????????? oh shit.. 

You noe why>>>??? Cuz, Jason doesn lik to be wif my frenz... Fed up la sometimes... Maybe not on normal days.... BUT,,, tat day was my bday maaaaannnn, cant he juz company me to them for awhile... Nth to say d....

While she and I were on the way to her car, she told me something... Something reli hurt... She said she wont go out wif me anymore... Cuz she feels tat I'd 忽略 her... I noe la... But I reli have to say, I didn mean tat... 

*P/S: Sorry, Samantha... SORRY... I didn mean tat... I hope u wont be angry at me... And I hope to have somemore n lots more chance to go out wif u oso.... Sorry lar... Frenz 4ever!

Minx...StuDio

Last Sunday, I went to cut my hair... I went to "Minx Studio" to set my hair... One thing I lik to set my hair there is bcuz they noe how to set ppl's hair n they noe wat taste tat their customers lik... I love it.... After cutting my hair, the hair stylist blowed my hair wif the hair dryer... It was so amazing...my hair gone straight.. But after washing it... It turns bak to normal... I reli wish I could go straighten my hair asap... Now I've to wait until November,,,,=_=""""

包袱

Happy BURF day!!!

Happy Birthday to you Samantha!!!




I took some pics of yr presents leh!!!

Samantha's bday eve

22nd August 2009,,,,

Today's Samantha's bday eve..

2mr, Samantha & I will be goin to Sunway to celebrate our bday...

I'm not quite sure if she's goin anot... But, Nicole & Cherlynn are not goin..and tis lowered the happy-feelings in my heart...

Guess wat??? Bcuz of A(H1N1)!!!

I'm extremely fed up of tis sickness!!! It cause too muc trouble to the humans... All of us are afraid bcuz it has already spreaded to our sch...
~Happy-feelings decrease 10%....~

Yesterday, the guard tat works in our sch caught me n my bf dating... We weren doin anything either!!! Tat bitch was juz making things serious!!! Ended up seeing Pn.Lailiah..(Penolong kanan in afternoon session).. She was depressing on me cuz she never thought of me brought into her office bcuz of any diciplin problems...
When I got bak into my class...I was totally down... I never thought of making tch depressing on me... In fact, I dun wan me making anyone depressed on me!!! Tat bitch fucking around in our sch made all, ALL OF US fed up!!! Stp fucking mouth!!! Fucking murdering indeed!!!
~Happy-feelings decrease another 20%~

Once I got home, I told everything to my bf and he juz gave me a word..."cheh"..
You noe wat, he thought tat was juz a small matter... Yes,maybe it is to somebody but not to me... I never hope to be a tch's favourite student...but at least not a tch's felt-depressing-on student... I told him tat the tch doesn want us to meet IN SCH, but he doesn even care!! He's selfish!!! Can't he juz learn a little bit abt respecting others??? Especially me!!! He never respect any of me decision.. Sometimes.. I'm FED UP OF HIM ALSO!!!!
~Happy-feelings decrease another 10%~

I received a msg from BOO, and I hope Sam wouldn log in to my blog to see this post... Boo said he'll be moving to Ipoh n I'm quite worried abt Sam... He asked me to forward a msg to Sam... It's very very touch... But of cuz, I couldn post out ppl's privacy... Hence, I wont forward to Sam oso... I dun wan to hurt my BEST FREN!!! Tis is abt the two of them so I juz dun wan to get into it... But,,, I'm very worried abt Sam...
~Happy-feelings decrease another 10%~

Jason keep asking me whether I'm really goin to Sunway anot... I was very mad... I'm totally not in mood...but obviously he doesn care... Well, I hope he could go... But if he goes... I'll increase 10% of my happy-feelings I think...
~Happy-feelings decrease another 10%~

Tch Joey, my piano tch came bak frem Vienna... Two of us hugged once we see each other... I was hell missing her...
~Happy feelings increase 10%~

I was so ashamed cuz I not yet buy Samantha's bday present... But of cuz, I'll buy 2mr when we shop in Sunway... And thanks a lot cuz I love tat bracelet VERY VERY muc!!! SAmantha and I has the same fav-colour oso... She loves blue and me too!!! Yeah!!! HI-5~~~ Her blog added so many post... I never been logging in my post for years... Busy ma...

Tat's why so many things to write lo... I still very upset abt my blog... I cant change my fonts... All icons missing... I wonder where did they go...=_="""""""

My RInG ^o^

I transfered some pics from my fon...

And I wanna to show my ring tat he bought for me tat day on my blog.. ^x^
But the pic made my hand looked so red...

Kinda scary... X.X

I cant work my USB!!!

I couldn work my USB for years...

DAMN STUPID USB!!!

Today, I finally worked it out!!! YEAH!!! ^,^

But it turned bak normal now...

I cant use it again...

The first time I use my webcam...

My aunt bought as my bday gift..!!

I wanted ages ago...haha..XD

I chat wif PENNY using tat my webcam...

So exciting...

But now, her webcam couldn work...haiz...Zzz

I transfered some pics and songs from my fon to my PC oso...

Finally...

BUT!!! Another bad thing isssss....., my blog gone bad oso...

I couldn change font size, font colour, and font type!!!

Dunno where the hell those icons when...

Come bak la...wuu...T.T

I need them la...X_X

To whom it may concern...

To whom tat I've hurt...
To whom tat I've scolded...
To whom tat I've lost my temper on them...

Sorry...
Sorry...
Sorry...

I was reli on a very very bad mood...
I was real sick...

I may have scolded somebody on the choir practice tis morning...
I hope you all could uds my feelings...
As I was reli quite mad...

Pls do receive my apologize...

To all choir members... n especially Samantha (Chiu Rou)

等待

没有他的那一秒...
没有他的那一刻...
没有他的时候...
没有他的日子...

我每一秒都过得很灰...
我每一分都过得很暗...
无时无刻都提不起心机...
任何时候都提不起精神...
连呼吸都觉得在窒息...
连呼吸都感觉到心在痛...

我等着他...
我总是在想着他...
吵架的时候，
不知道为什么，
真的特别想念着他...

想着他，到底在做些什么...
想着他，到底是否在想我...
想着他，没有我的日子...会不会也像我那样想念着我...

我想生气他...但我却没办法做到...
我好没用...........真没用............

他会不会想念我....？
他会不会想着我....？
他会不会要找我....？
他会不会在乎我....？
他会不会紧张我....？
他心里有没有我....？

还是,,,
他真的根本就不在乎我...？
还是,,,
他真的根本没有在想我...？
只等待着我什么时候会去找他...
只等待着我什么时候会去哄他...
只等待着我什么时候会去跟他道歉、向他认错...
还是,,,

只等待着我什么时候会跟他提出
“那两个字”....？

沿海地带

空荡荡的夜滩
入秋未凉的海
微风把脚下的树叶都吹干
火车就要出发催促我快 离 开
我的心里承载
你不了解的爱
当时望住坚强一切都阴霾
没想到害怕更证实存在
在沿海地带 放逐我的爱
孤单也很精彩
我相信我们都有 该去的未来
不该在原地徘徊

我其实很明白
梦醒了就不在
只是还挣扎着不让它离开
紧紧抓着的也都是空白
在沿海地带 放逐我的爱
孤单也很精彩
我相信我们都有该去的未来
不该在原地徘徊
在沿海地带我预言离开
要更自由自在
我要我的心散却打听的重担
不留在原地感慨

MY FridAY NiGht

Las nite was Boo’s birthday. He had a birthday party at his hse. So many friends were invited. He fetched me to Boo’s hse... We had Barbecue but I never eat la... Cuz I ate dinner at home early d... Samanthe reached there so late... I heard Boo, Karuna n Li Ting playing the piano... To me, they’re not juz higher grade than me, they were juz so “god”... Terribly nice.... I love to hear Karuna playing the piano... So relaxing...

After tat, cake time,,, I ate the birthday cake... And Boo’s father was chasing me around the hse juz to take a pic of me as I was keep hiding from him.... So Scary... I finally know wat’s “DOTA”... Argh!!! Juz a stp killing game... So “wu liao”...

And then, Boo, Samantha, Jason n I went to the park together. But they walked in front and Jason I walked behind them... The park looked so creepy...so dark...so quiet...so scary... I holded his hands tightly... Ya and one more thing... the park was full of mosquitoes!!!! I played the swring n Jason pushed my from behind... Then I fell down cuz I din realise tat thing... He was so worried abt me...and made me keep laughing... HAHA...XD!!!

We kissed...
We hugged...
We walked hands together...
We played until so crazy... ( Dun simply thiink ar)
And the first time he carried me on his back...

So romantic man....
Though its dark...and creepy...and scary... but I enjoyed my Friday nite....
I enjoyed my Friday nite with him...

我知道

从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过


从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过娇纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流

My Friday

Yesterday morning I had my piano practical exam. Pruposely wake up early in the morning for all the preparations and to practise my piano scales, pieces n all stuff.

I tried not to be nervous...but I juz cant stop being NERVOUS...!!!

Later tat, my dad fetch my mom from the office as she wanted to company me to go thru my exam... We had breakfast... And I was keep drinking hot drinks to calm down and to cool down myself but it never helped anything at all....

After having our breakfast, we reached SHERETON HOTEL. After the registration, we waited insid the participles’ waiting room... But, I’m still nervous’ing’.... Heart beated terribly fast... Even my friends said tat it was very easy but I cant nervous’ing’ also..!!

Finally, it was my turn... My legs n hands couldnt stop shaking, I juz afraid of doin mistakes later.... Once I got into the room,,, I realised tat the examinar was a old lady... She looked fierce... I swolen my saliva hardly... Then I sat in front of the piano and started my scales. One mistake for the scales... Phewww.... Bad... I’m starting to worry everything now... Second, my pieces. The first song was well, the second song was ok, the third song...well....I made some mistakes at the end of the song...=_=”...

And then, the others lik aural, echo singing and dynamics changes all were gone thru well... Until “SIGHT READING”!!!!!!!!!!!! Its was a nightmare to me. By and large, I can say honestly tat I was simply playing....

But, I reli hope tat I could still get DISTINCTION!!!!

一年一次

7月9日，
这一天是他的生日...
前一个礼拜，我还在头疼着要送什么礼物给他好... 本想随便买一个送他就好... 但，怎样来说，我是他女朋友...礼物怎样都不能随便到哪里去... 终于到了前一天，我突然想到要煮饭盒然后带去学校给他吃... 然后，我就跟嘉营东想西想的...就在想要煮什么给他好...

还是第一次为一个男生绞尽脑汁地在想要煮什么给他吃...
想好了...我决定要煮....宫保鸡丁,,,炸鸡,,,一些菜给他咯...
多亏有婆婆帮我...最大的功劳应该是她吧...
在我身边帮助我，教我要怎样炒，放什么调味料...
我真的不会煮的！

虽然婆婆是没有什么看好我们的感情...因为我们每天吵架嘛...看到我每天为他哭， 又因为他愁眉苦脸地，看到她都心痛... 但是她还是希望我开心的...^，^
煮好了，我就带去学校 咯...他第一次是说不好吃...
然后回到家，他就跟我说，他好感动噢...还说其实是很好吃的^。^
他这样说...我也很感动啊...T。T

分手... 和好...

分手... 和好...
分手... 和好...
分手... 和好...


我跟他,,,原来还，没到达一个稳定期...
我们之间是那么的脆弱,,,
分手的词字是那么容易地被说出口...

分手的定义是什么...???
为何他就能够那么轻易的溜出口来？？？

难道我对他来说,,,Signifying NOTHING???
难道我对他来说...没代表着什么吗？？？
难道我在他心里,,,是什么也不是吗？？？

终是要我答应他分手的要求...

我告诉自己说，
既然他都说出口了...
我便说服我自己尝试去接受这个事实...
接受要跟他分开的事实...
好不容易接受了这惨痛的事实...
当我下定决心要，，

忘记他...
忘记这个人...
忘记跟他的一切一切。。。

他就问我，要不要分手..................................................
我应该是开心才对...
但我很愤怒,,,
因为...他害我为他流露了那么多眼泪...
就因为他！！！

这算什么？？？
我对爱情可不是闹着玩的！！！！

为什么他就不能够尊重我的感受呢？？？

我是~~~？痛苦！

今天他特地来陪我回家，但是我们一见面就开始吵了...
一边走一边吵，也就是吵到我回家...

这几个天因为都特别忙，所以都不能写我的 BLOG...
但只是在这短短的几天内，却发生了很多事...

上个星期，我和他又吵架。那时已是晚上了，我和他都是准备要睡觉了，但还是还
没有吵完。当天是因为我的篮球而吵的...他一向都不赞成我打篮球...只是我硬硬
要打..也吵了不少次...这次也不知道为什么的，我讲话终是“语无伦次”....就连
自己说了什么话都不懂...

好烦~！ 好乱~！ 好可怕~！ 好恐怖~！

但换来的不是得到他的安慰，，，而是他对我的不信任，，，他一直都以为我在说
谎,,,
说什么我不可能不知道自己在说什么！！！

当时的我，累了...
当时的心，死了...
当时，就在那时候,,,我仿佛跟一个死人没差别...
我不知道还有谁能够帮助我...

我快“挂”了... 我撑不下去了...
这还是我人生中第一次那么失落，也是最失落的一次...

我好害怕我自己...我从，没尝试过这种那么恐怖的感觉...
我突然觉得自己好陌生...好陌生...
因为，我连我自己都不知道自己是谁了...

猜不透

*~猜不透 你最近是好是坏 更沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁
猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过 且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
猜不透 相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过 且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的
*~如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

*~到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是才不透

Broken HEART

You noe wat Samantha? You've the same situation as me ALSO!!! I FED UP by doin tis and tat as he doesn notice at all!!! Wat a broken heart!!! Tat I'd never been treating a guy tat good lik him!!! BUT!!! He doesn believe me!!! I hate when he jealose of something!!! Somebody!!! Someone!!!! Some secret to tell you, I admit I will get jealose also BUT I juz wan him to make me happy, to cheer me... You noe, tis is most of the girls' "hobby".... BUT he would never noe tis... Actually, I wasn jealose sometimes though I acted to be ... He wont abt care my feelings...never... He wont noticed me...never.... He wont spend time juz to cheer me or to care me....never.... At first, I reli thought I've everything! I thought I've hapiness... I thought I've a bf tat loves and cares me as muc as he could do.... No MORE,,,, these are fake... I juz realised tat I'd been dreaming all time...STILL!!! I juz chose to believe and not to awake!!! I wan a guy tat loves me... I wan a guy tat cares me... I wan a guy tat will make me happy.... I wan a guy tat will bring hapiness to me!!! I WAN HAPPINESS... HAPINESS??? Maybe you'll ask me wat's tat... Cuz I noe there's no such word! Until juz now, he told me STRAIGHT FORWARD tat goin out wif me makes him feels BORING!!! Why he has to be lik tat??? I thought I won my fren, tat I've won HAPINESS...but, obviously....I'd lost....LOST>>>LOST>>>LOST>>> I'd lost... She owns hapiness,,,, She is so happy wif her bf now,,, Her bf treat her so well.... Her bf act her as a BABY you noe??? They are so SWEET... AND, I'd no more for these!!! My fren, EDEN, asked me to let him go... She said I'm not happy at all...very obvious,,,she said... BUt wat can I do??? I love him.... I dunno why, once I've finished typing tis sentence "I love him", I smiled...so cold.... I felt it's far away from me (I mean tis word)... I felt is's so distance... I felt it's so unreal... I felt it became so fake... All my DREAMS....have faded.... Everything....have faded.... No mood..=_=' Even no mood to type proper english...

毒腹人心

你讲我发娇？？？
你有什么资格讲我发娇？？？
你凭什么讲我发娇？？？
凭你有很多“干哥”就到处 LCLY ？？？
走路时屁股悄来悄去！！！
你自己也比我发娇好不好？？？
照照镜子啦！！！
以为全世界的男生都迷上你啊？？？

吐！！！

有口讲别人，没有口讲自己！！！

你说人家发娇？？？
你也好不到哪里去！！！
没有男生好像会死酱！！！

做人做到你酱假！！！
做女人做到你酱 CHEAP ！！！
做朋友做到你酱失败！！！

反正你身边也没有多少是对你真心实意的朋友！！！
靠近你简直就是在污染着自己！！！
以为自己好像很厉害酱！！！
占男生便宜占到透顶！！！
对你好一点就以为人家喜欢你！！！
又厉害编故事骗人！！！
说那男生对你多好多好！！！

吐！！！

做不成男女朋友还要人家当你的“干哥”！！！

真够不知丑！！！


不要脸！！！


三八婆！！！

CarinG

Thx for yr caring so muc...

I know I'm in a reality life... I know fairy tales wont happen in reality life... I know these are all fairy tales and will only happen in our dreams... I know fairy tales would not come true...
I dun believe in destiny... I dun believe in forever... Love stories dont last forever... Loves are fake!
They dun make miracle!
They dun turn magic!

Well, in the same view, I mean both of us... We've to stand up together rite?
We WONT believe in fake stories...^^

I juz have been busying these few days... Nothing happened to me... Dont worry.... Btw, thx!

Again & Again.....

Again & Again...
How long do I have to repeat this word...???

Again & Again...
I cried again & again...

Again & Again...
My heart breaks again & again...

Again & Again...
Ppl ask me to break up with him...

Again & Again...
I said I still love him

Again & Again...
My heart hurts...

Samantha said, "No happy endings if you all keep fighting,
maybe it's time to give up.....".....

I hope my heart wont be wrong...

"I hate hurtful words!!!
I hate hurtful stuff!!!
I hate things tat make my heart hurtful!!!!"

I think, I said to a person las nite...

"For a couple, you all fight a lot!"

I remembered, a fren said it to me.

"I promise, I wont make you cry and upset, never..."

I knew, this person tat say this to me, is the one I love...and forever...ever lasting love........

I believe, memories doens fade...
I believe, MY memories aren fake...
I believe, believe in love...

I hope, all these "believe" would never gone....

But,,,What is forever? Could anyone tell me....?
I believe everything, but I juz dont and wont believe in forever!!!
NEVER BELIEVE IN FOREVER!!!

Wat's forever..? A prettyful lie... A hurtful word... Forever is until you die... Is tat true?

Samantha, do you think this's funny?
After cheering you up, I juz fall into a deep deep hole again....
At all times, I stand up by myself...
I dun need ppl to cheer me up... Juz bcuz I think this as a fake... After tat, I wont think at all...
But until, my heart breaks again or I fall into a hole again... EVERYTHING tat I kept it in my heart...,juz appears in my mind......:'(

For a person tat mentioned I'm her GREAT FRIEND...

For a GREAT FRIEND,

From the first day I saw you, to me, you're a tough girl...a cheerful girl... But I realised I was wrong... I hope you dun mind,,, I juz wanna leave some words for you,,,, and I hope could cheer you up...
I just wanna make yr days....brighter.....

Accept what you must and change what you can, not leaving in dreams... not forcing yrself to forget a person tat you can never forget... Think before you act, and not regret any moment of carelessness... Appreciate what you have and the wonderful person you are. Enjoy the simple pleasures of life, in nature and in people. Forgive mistakes and forget the past. Learn and discover new experience and take life as an adventure. Dream and make plans for your future...

GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT....
Lik I say, dun force yrself to forget a person tat you can never forget...... Cuz you will be suffering...

Juz keep his name in the inside and the deeper part of yr heart. And owiz to thank him...
Thank him for letting you experience wat is love and letting you to grow up...
谢谢他，让你学会了死心。。。

I dunno am I right to say all these to you,but, I juz wan to cheer you up...

Dear GOD:
Touch the people I care for.
Keep them safe & happy.
Give them love & good health.
Bless them....
especially the ONE who reading this msg
and the ONe who I wanted to real bless.

As a fren, I'll owiz, OWIZ be there for you.

Take Care!

TIRAMISU!!!

I love TIRAMISU!!!!

My Favourite!!!













我爱TIRAMISU蛋糕！！！
我的最爱！！！

Great Girl!~

I cant believe Samantha reli mention my name in her blog! ;)

We were so funny by keep arguing abt whose blog is BETTER... LOL! Lik I say, both of us are oso perfect! At least she has more fans than me and tis's wat tat I've to admit it...

I love her songs in her blog, especially the first song, "one and the same"...! It's real COOL!!!

Haha, and now is my turn to mention her name in my blog. Samantha, if you had read this, jux wanna to tell you tat......you're real fantastic girl!

I still BELIEVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Even though I'm not

Some how I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he awaits for me
Some day soon he'll see I'm the one

I wont give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

I know whats real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for awhile
With just one touch love can concure fears
Turning all your tears into smiles

Its such a wonderous feeling
I know that my heart cant be wrong

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift ya from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever
When you fall
Its the greatest power of all

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and i were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love

Yes I still believe
Believe in love
Still believe in love
I still believe
Believe in love